HALT

Never let yourself get too:

Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired.

These are the signals to watch out for. Ignore them at your own peril. Close your eyes to them as you walk across the landscape of life and you will find yourself looking up from the bottom of a well.

This week, I was hit by the L-train.

It's funny when you think about it. I have only a few people in my life I consider really good friends, but tons of people who consider me a good friend. But I talk to few people on a deep level. Usually there's not enough time. I haven't had time to talk to many people this week. I can feel the dangerous insulaton of isolation.

So I don't talk much past the surface. But like many creative types, I think so deeply that if I am not careful, I can wrestle with depression. And that makes me not want to be around people, so I won't bring them down. And that makes me lock myself inside of myself and lock others out... which begins the spiral. Next thing I know, I hear an echo of my own voice... and the dripping of water.

Wells are good if you want to hear the echoes of your own thoughts, but bad if you actually want to go anywhere or do something about them.

So this post is the first step out. It's the first foot on the brick. It's the grip on the rope ready to pull myself out of the dark of the well. And ready and pull and pull and pull.

Staying down here is not an option. I hear snakes can fall in wells at night.... scary!

Pull faster pull faster